Day 6: Bonding

I can hardly believe that it's been 10 months since I've been living with the Schmidt family! What a privilege it has been to witness some major milestones for each of these kids -- first going to the potty -- first words -- first day of preschool and kindergarten.

I don't know how many more days I will be here, but in the meantime, I am soaking up these priceless moments. These kids hold a very special place in my heart and always will.

*** Isaac ***

*** Marcus & Chloe ***

Day 5: On Being 30

As of a couple weeks ago, I was feeling a little depressed about turning 31. There was so much anticipation built up to 30, only for it to feel a like a let down.

Thought I would have found the job, the home, the neighborhood, the relationship…

The intangible sweet spot.

However, if I look with a different lens that allows me to see past the initial disappointments, I am beginning to see a different me.

I see a woman who has weathered some really difficult storms; yet has somehow come out the other side a little tired, but not defeated.

Faith tested, yet unwavering in the face of trial. This is the woman I want to be when I share stories with my grandkids in 30 years.

Day 4: Easter

The gifts of Easter come in small packages...

Day 3: Last Day of Lent

This Lent, I gave up two staples in my diet: bread and sugar.

Driving home one day after a gathering, I couldn’t help but be tempted by two of my favorite snacks that were sitting in my car. All alone, I gave in and indulged myself. After the fact, I was faced with the reality that…

I am weak.

I am vulnerable.

I am needy.

This is the unadorned self that I don’t like to reveal to others. But this is the self that understands its need for a Savior.

As I am confronted with self this Lent, I am also confronted with His grace in a deeper way. God knew that I would mess up, but He provided a way out of my impending death.

Where would I be without the Lamb? 

Day 2: The Veil was Torn in Two

God forsakes His Son for the sake of His Beloved. All of earth quaked at the death of God’s only Son who took on the sin of the world.

“… It is finished.”

The curtain—symbolizing all that separated us from God—was torn in two. Straight from the hand of God—top to bottom.

The most violent act of God was also His most intimate one.

Divine Love clears my record, remembers my sin no more, and reaches down and touches me. The King of glory makes Himself known to His people and removes the veil.

Because of this, nothing separates me from the love of God.


Nothing.

Day 1: The Power of Relationships

Lately, I’ve been learning that the key to community impact is through relationship. This is where the kingdom happens. Relationships that cross ethnic, socio-economic, cultural lines – make you think twice about your life and the norms that may not be true for your neighbor.

Today, as I sat on a Human Trafficking Taskforce with Kingdom Causes and various leaders in the city, I learned about the importance of relationships to victims. Social isolation is their greatest enemy. Yet, consistent and trusting relationships have the greatest power to bring healing.

What happens when loving your neighbor means calling them friend?

Church of the City

It's been 8 months since I became a Long Beach resident.
I am well-acquainted with the 710 and the 405.
I frequent the local "It's a Grind" and "Coffee Bean" at least once a week and have become a recognizable face.
The local gym staff greet me by name, and the neighbors wave hello when they see me on the street.
I've become accustomed to the street sweeping routine.
And I know the best breakfast places, running trails, and parks in a 10-mile radius.
Long Beach has become home.

It's not hard to love this place, as you'll find any local a die hard "LBC" fan.
But much of my affection for this city has grown through the influence of my most recent job -- Vision360 Long Beach -- an organization which has set out to love their city by empowering the "big C" Church of the City to respond to the needs of their community.
As I was saying my goodbyes last week to my boss/mentor, I was struck by the overwhelming realization that my life would forever be changed by the influence of this organization and this man.
Who knew a 5-month job could be so significant?

Prior to Vision360, I admit that I had a very short-sighted and limited vision for ministry in the city.
I really had no framework for understanding the importance of relationships and partnerships like I do now.
It was through Vision360 that I saw for the first time businessmen and church leaders sitting across the table working together for a common goal = to love their city.
This is so rare, but I am starting to see that this is KEY to transforming a community.
How much more would our cities benefit if we stopped trying to recreate programs and resources that others in our community are already doing well, and focus our energies on building stronger partnerships?
How can we work to be on the "same team?"
That was one thing that always amazed me about my boss.
He works really hard to stay connected to visionaries and leaders throughout the city.
He refers to business partners as friends.
He never saw them as commodities, but rather, people who had something to teach him.
And it is out of these trusting relationships that lasting partnerships have been built.
If we, the Church, were more willing to partner with each other rather than fight each other over petty differences, our communities would be better for it.

As I am beginning to see myself as a part of the greater Church of the City, I find that my paradigm for ministry in the city is changing as I think about what's next for me vocationally.
My opportunity for community impact isn't confined to my local church or working in a non-profit organization.
But rather, no matter what domain I find myself in, I am committed to using my resources and influence to better love and serve my community. Period.
I don't have to have a position title that designates me as a leader in my community.
If I learned anything from Vision360 and my mentor, it is that your capacity for community impact is directly connected to the level of your relationships/partnerships and long-term commitment to that city.

At the end of the day, I want to be faithful.
I will find a way to love my city whether I am working in the non-profit sector, a public university, the church, or the business domain.
I am indebted to Vision360 and my mentor for giving me a picture of what "missional" living can look like no matter what domain I serve in long-term.

I am not an island, but part of something much greater than myself... the Church.


“I do not ask for these only, but also for those who will believe in me through their word, that they may all be one, just as you, Father, are in me, and I in you, that they also may be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me" (John 17:20-21).